Today was pretty okay for the most part, school-stress-wise. I got the majority of my final for art done, so I won't have to worry about it too much over the weekend, and I wrote out what I am going to say for my nonprofit presentation tomorrow, so I feel much less anxiety about that. After tomorrow, I will only need to focus on writing my paper for English, and studying for the couple exams I have next week. The only worry I really have is my finite final, as I have to get an 84% on my final in order for this course to count...and I really don't want to take this course again (plus, I know my parents will be so disappointed in me and I don't know if I will be able to deal with that). Like...I know, it's a college course, so it is really hard and I should just be happy I made it this far...but jesus, I have never failed a course before and the possibility of failing one now is just so overwhelming for me...I'm going to have to study super duper hard this weekend, like studying for math is going to have to be priority number 1 for me.

Another thing I have to do this weekend is begin to pack, in order to go home. Packing is such a stressful thing for me, especially when it involves packing this much stuff. My OCD makes it particularly hard, because I have to pack things in a certain way in a certain order, otherwise I will feel sick to my stomach...needless to say, this weekend is going to be way too stressful for me!!!

Today has been nice, though, since I haven't had too much strenuous work. After my meeting with my group, I have a meeting with the floor of my dorm, after which I will probably do some packing and cleaning, so I won't have to worry about it too much this weekend, when I'm trying to study.

Completely changing topics, the main reason today has been Not Nice, is that my friend J hasn't texted me once today...which is particularly hard, because J is my favorite person in the universe, and knowing they are awake (they're tweeting/posting on Tumblr) and yet ignoring my messages is a very upsetting thing...like, logically, I know they are probably just hanging out with their girlfriend or at work or doing housework, and I am being stupid for obsessing over them all day...but it still Bothers me so much, like how hard is it to simply text back a lil "good morning friend"? Jesus, just thinking about it makes me a mixture of sad and angry.

Anyway, that's about all for now. I will write again tomorrow!